Sunday, October 15, 2017

EXTREME DIET: Lost my period for 6 months.

Hi lovelies!
Making videos is so fun lately. I still don't forget about this blog, though. :D

Tuesday, October 3, 2017

Tuesday, September 5, 2017

Update: End of AuPair Life... Goodbye, USA.

Hello, my loves!
Recently, my friend told me I would neglect my blog. She is not wrong with that, lol. A lot happened in the last couple months.

Well, here's an important update: I am back in Germany since the 1st August! Can you guys believe it? It was actually planned that I would stay for 13 months in the USA, but it ended up being 10 months. I thought about making a special video for you guys to answer everything about why I came back earlier to Germany and how I'm feeling now. Don't hesitate to write any kinds of questions down in the comments, I'm an open book, really! Don't forget to mention if you want to be named in the video or not. :-)

I spent my "travel month" (that every aupair gets after their work as an aupair) at my boyfriend's. I didn't really travel. Sounds crazy, right? I will explain everything in a video.

Here a brief summary of my last day: My last day in the States was quite nice. My boyfriend & his best friend organized a farewell party for me at the backyard. Their friends came over and also mine (one went home earlier and the other arrived later). We played beer pong. I played it for the first time & I'm proud to say that I let my team win the last shot. *giving myself a pat on the back* :D We also had a BBQ. It was a cool time. We went back home very late and woke up at noon to bring me to the JFK airport. I became so emotional when I went through the gates and waved goodbye to my boyfriend and his best friend. I couldn't stop crying like a baby. They made my aupair year awesome, including my aupair friends and other amazing people, who didn't stress me out. I can't thank everybody of you enough for following my journey that far. I will continue with this blog. I think I should start writing it in German, what do you guys think about it? The English (or other language) speakers can still translate my blog by clicking on the translation tab. I'm pretty sure that weird translations will turn out. xD However, I feel like typing in German is faster. :P I will make videos in English, though. Stay tuned. And don't forget to ask the questions before it's too late. :D

So long,

Loanica xx

Thursday, April 27, 2017

Homesickness: Do I miss my home country?

I remember these words my brousin (= brother + cousin) told me before I went to the USA: "I bet you will cry your eyes out after a week being in the States due to homesickness." Oh boy, we should've bet for money, for real. It's been 8 months already since I left my homeland Germany to reside in New York, USA.

My moments of nostalgia
  • One day, I was walking around in NYC. Among all the people speaking in English, I suddenly heard two men speaking in a language which sounded familiar to German. I listened closely and felt... nostalgic. The pedestrians' traffic lights turned red. I stood behind the two German men and wanted to speak to them. Then, the older of them turned his head to me and smiled at me, as if he heard in his mind that someone behind them wanted to approach them. His friendly smile encouraged me to do so. "Which part of Germany are you from?", I asked the men in English. "Hamburg", they said. They were quite surprised that I knew that they were Germans. I told them that I was born in Germany. That was all. I did not say that I was able to speak German, so they did not focus on that. We were speaking in English. They asked me where to get Broadway tickets cheaply as though I had been spending my whole life in New York. I felt kinda joyful to be regarded as an American.
  • Another day, I went to an Anglistic Church in my town for the first time out of curiosity. I went to that church's office and met Carol, a secretary of that church. Carol offered me to take a seat on a nice armchair. We had a nice conversation. I told her that I came to Germany in September. She looked all astonished and said: "The secretary in the other room is also from Germany!!!" Do you mean her ethnicity or that she is really from Germany?, I thought. Carol called the German secretary's name. Then, a woman entered the room and stood at the door, greeting us. "This is Loanica", Carol introduced me, "she is from the West of Germany and came here a few months ago." The German secretary looked at me with big eyes. "Sie können Deutsch sprechen? (You can speak German?)" She asked me excitedly and almost in tears. I felt her being nostalgic at that moment. I also felt the same. She explained that she had not spoken German for a long time because she did not know anyone in the little town who could speak German. She was glad to meet someone who finally spoke German.

Am I homesick or nah?
What I want to say with the two stories above is that I only have my little nostalgic moments when I hear someone speaking German somewhere. But fact is: you cannot really consider that as homesickness. 
I miss my family & friends in Germany. I miss the celebrations and events there that I cannot attend. However, these don't stop me from being here. I don't think about turning back home only to miss a great time of my life here in the States. There is so much more to learn & to explore. Even though there are downs (not because of homesickness), I know they're temporary because I have 5 months left until I get back home to Germany. I have much positive energy for the present and the exciting things coming up for me!

My hostkid took these pictures. She's got the skills!

Monday, April 24, 2017

I am: AN AU PAIR! What do you mean, "perfect life"?

I am an au pair. I am staying with my lovely host family and take care of two adorable kids. An au pair is a young adult from a foreign country who works in another country to work for a host family and becomes a part of the family's routine. You usually do childcare related tasks. As an au pair, you have to take a lot of responsibility. You are trusted with the most precious gift of a parental couple & you better not mess up. :D Au pairs have childcare experiences, mostly through babysitting, working in a childcare, etc.

Perfect life?
Recently, I was told by a blog reader I seemed to have a perfect life as an au pair. I looked at my blog & you could really assume everything is a picnic for me. I'm sorry for breaking the illusion, but it ain't. The articles that I uploaded so far are about experiencing new places and my travels. These, however, happen on the weekends or on my vacation, not everyday. I only posted about these big things because they are new to you and more exciting. Well, behind all these big things, there is work. In general, work can be pleasant and unpleasant. Au pairing is not easy peasy lemon squeezy (au pairs, are you with me? :P). When you read blogs, you might think that everyday consists of no worries, but only good vibes. You compare yourself to the bloggers and might want to be them or want a life like them. Nah, bruh, life ain't easy for everyone. I want to make you aware of the fact that bloggers are also humans. There are ups and downs for everybody, even celebrities, even though it doesn't seem that way. This is reality. We bloggers tend to publish the pleasant part of our lives. We leave the bad parts out 'cause they might be too private to publish. There is also the case that bloggers want to escape from the reality, which is understandable. At the end of the day, my dear blog readers, you need to realize that also you have things in your life you can cherish, although you don't feel that way. You only need to focus on them, rather than the unpleasant ones. Then you have the peaceful life that you read in the "life seems to be perfect" blogs. xD I try not to let my blog appear as my life is so perfect like that. I am also a human being with flaws & I am totally honest with that and proud of that. It makes me me.

As a matter of fact, I am doing excellent. Not excellent in the manner of "My life is absolutely perfect because I do travels everyday", but "I'm excellent because my gratitude is so grand for the things in my life that make me happy. Even though I have my downs, too, I am grateful for each moment I can learn from. At the end, I will be a much more stronger person. I know that I am a persistent and purposeful human being." ➳